Post by hunter on Apr 22, 2011 19:13:03 GMT -5
Hunter preferred being outside. He felt at home in nature like he couldn't do anywhere else. Even the little apartment he was renting didn't feel much like home to him. It was cosy enough, and had everything he needed, but Hunter couldn't feel truly at ease there; not while his son was hundreds of miles away with his parents in law. He should be there, looking after his child. The boy meant everything to him. Instead, here he was, serving the Queen and working odd hours just to scrape together enough money to keep himself afloat and send some home for Jacob. When he was young, Hunter's father had told him that what they did was a noble profession. Hunter didn't feel so noble now. He felt downtrodden and trapped. When you knew there was no way out, your world suddenly felt a whole lot smaller. He knew he had no one to blame but himself. He'd brought this upon himself when he'd let the Queen's step-daughter go free. He had disobeyed a direct order from his mistress, then, to make it worse, he'd lied about it. Still, he knew, deep down, however desperate his situation was now, that he had done the right thing. He was a huntsman, not a murderer. The girl had done nothing wrong. She hadn't deserved to die, and Hunter wasn't going to be the man who damned his own soul on the whim of others. He had always prided himself on his morals and principles and they had held strong in the moment when it could have been so easy to just give in and do as he was told. It would have been the easier road, but not the right one. Now, all he could do was deal with the consequences of that choice.
Hunter sank down on one of the benches that adorned the edge of the path at intervals; far enough apart that you could feel alone when you sat on one, but close enough that the next was always in sight. Hunter had already passed two benches but they had been occupied - the first by an old woman who had been muttering to herself, the second by a young couple, completely wrapped up in each other. He remembered when he had been like that with his wife. It had been eight years since he'd met her, five since she had died giving birth to their son. The three glorious years they had had together had been some of the best of Hunter's life. Now he was alone, broke and feeling at least twenty years older than he looked. Still, the bench he had eventually stopped at had a good view out over the park and it felt peaceful here. He didn't know how long he intended to stay here, but time to clear his head couldn't go amiss. He settled back against the wooden slatted back of the bench, folding his arms over his chest.